Sunday, December 10, 2006
[Waiting in Vain @
People who don't know me better (which the contradictory is quite non-existant), would think I'm a hardcore, anime/manga crazed fan when I told them that once, I downloaded 50 GB of anime/manga/drama in a month. Sometimes I explain patiently to them that most of the things I downloaded are left in my harddisk/burned dvd untouched, but most of the time I just let it go. I download anime/manga just for the sake of downloading, or to watch when I'm extremely bored, or feeling extremely laid back. THEN I would grab some food and sit in front of my anime watching some random anime while I concentrate more on the food. Only when I found an extemely likeable character did I even try to watch the whole series. I find it very hard nowadays to totally get into anything. It's like I don't enjoy doing things I used to like... one of the downsides of depression, I guess. The only thing I can play without being bored the first few hours is World of Dungeons which I've played for about 5-6 months already. Probably because my group depends on me so much. Other than that I'll have no qualms about leaving that game too.
I prefer hanging with game fans, they have much more common sense than geeky anime fans. Pity in an all girls school there's basically zilch. All I know is this punky goth chick (which is pretty scary), and my Japanese teacher. Yep, a teacher. And here I am always thinking that they have no life...
While I'm at it, I'm also gonna rant about my wacky (possibly the weirdest person I've ever met) friend's sister. Not that I've ever talked to the sister, but she's scary. One day, when I was standing idly in front of my roll call room (that damn teacher is ALWAYS late), this punk/goth/emo girl that looks like she just jumped out of a manga walked by, and while doing so casted a side way glance at way. I remember going, "Holy shit, she's scary!". From that point onwards I decided to avoid every punk/goth/rocker/emo person I encounter. Only later did I just remember that she's the little sister of that wacky friend of mine. And trust me, they look NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING alike. While the sister is weird, funny, idiotic... in a nice way, this girl is gloomy, dark, emo looking, and scary. And had a LOT of makeup on.
Talk about genetic differences... Remind me again why I used to want a sister, and kept pestering my mom about it. Thank god I'm actually the only child (half brothers do not count since they're... adults, and we have our own separate lives). Although it can get lonely at times... sometimes I really wish for a person I can share my feelings with. Having none, naturally I resort to a blog. Although it seems that while I have no one to confide in, I've become the person my friend(s) go to when they want to confide about their depression (and one of them is actually pretty fucked up. Smiling and acting like a cheerful idiot to hide her depression... almost sounds like an emo anime). It seems that I am that KIND of person. I long for the day that person will come... which is probably never.
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